YES, I'm angry at being disfigured by these people. However, I've let my rage and pain speak far too candidly. They only keep using that to hurt me more. Dr. Bittner willfully, knowingly left me to be operated on by a man he knows has no medical licenses whatsoever. But the thing is, he and his wife (the company is under her name and she participated in this) simply deny it ever happened and blame me for my own disfigurement. No one can take away what these people did to me.
But I want to make it clear now:
If anyone has read my story and resorted to taking the law in to their own hands then please, absolutely stop. That is not, in truth what I want. If you've done that at all, then don't do it again. I am asking you to not jeapardize your safety or liberty to punish these people on my behalf.
Do not give them more fodder to blast me with so they can blame me for the ramifications of their bad choices. They are not worth it. The world needs more people WITH morality and a conscience NOT fewer. Do not become what they are even for a second, even in yoru heart.
My telling the truth about what they did to me is seen to them as an "intentional interference with prospective business advantage." They are suing me for that.
This will be going to court in LA. I will post the court and the date and time. I do not see that you who are running this web site will give me any help. But at least here I can be heard.
They have people call my house pretending to be lawyers wanting to represent me against them (actual lawyers they pay to do this), then ask me to tell them what they did to me over and over and over. Forcing me to relive it for their what? Pleasure? Each of these people do what they are doing by choice. They have people come to my door, call my house and harrrass me online, asking me again and again and again to tell them about what they did to me.
All of you who are doing these things serve them by choice. I do not want servants like that. I do not want anyone near me who is the sort who would feel a sense of power or pleasure in treating another human being as I am being treated. Not for money, not for professional reasons, not for personal reasons or beliefs. You do NOT represent me if you act like him and his "well paid" minions.
This has been going on for two months straight. I am exhausted. They are doing everything to make my life miserable as they try to discredit me and provoke me into making mistakes that they can then use against me in court. They have contacted me twenty or more times as different people trying to befriend me and pump me for infomation.
Now they are claiming I am an extortionist and have begun a legal assault on me, even falsely accusing me of sending violent movies/pictures to all their employees or blaming me if anyone else did it becasue I revealed what they did to me to the world. Yet it is they who are claiming emotional and financial distress and trauma. Yes they will protect one another becasue for one of them to admit wrongdoing they all become culpable. It is an overwhelming enemy I face. But I will not surrender against this Goliath.
Yet NO, I do not want them harmed or threatened. Yes, I hate these people for what they have done to me and continue to do to me. I hate that they have caused me to live in constant pain and fear. Yet NO, I do not want them harmed in any way. I also do not want to continue to live in hate because that just gives them power over me.
Yes, I wish they never ever existed to me, near me, in my world. I wish they had never come into contact with me. I accept that. I must move on. And I will not let hate continue to consume me.
The world is not a perfect place. People without a conscience exist. God only knows I just wanted to improve my appearance, not get out of the shower every morning and see my face, underarms, hips and stomach and back uneven and covered in lumps and adhesions. But that is not going to change until I've healed enough to see the final damage and get this fixed. It is part of my life now. Yet I know they will do everything they can to ensure I am destitute before that happens.
They have unlimited funds to continue assaulting me, to do everything they can to destroy and humiliate me and any other woman who challenges them. I have very little money and no power. I am one small voice. There is purpose in this.
Please everyone, do NOT take that as license to do anything to harm them. Rather please take it as license to consider me in your thoughts and prayers. To focus on a legal system that protects the smallest voice and not the biggest wallet. We live in the greatest country in the world, and it is built on laws that make it great. Please, for my sake and sake of my children, respect those laws.
Having adits holes cut into my skin and tubes inserted to suck fat out of my body while I screamed and begged them to stop will be with me every waking hour and every sleeping hour for the rest of my life. Never knowing who they are going to send to my door or have call me or contact me online has stolen my sense of safety and trust. They have violated my body, my mind and life in every way short of outright rape.
Yet I firmly believe hope remains. Justice will prevail. Vigilantism should not.
That is not what being in the USA is all about. I want them in prison for what they did to me.
NOTE:
No this was not just a patient "becoming aware during surgery." This was a team of people knowing they had no right to operate and doing it because a someone who took an oath to "first do no harm" told them to. This is about them actively trying to cover up what they did to me and villianize me and continue to harm me and my family. This is about me accepting that this is hat happened and moving on with my life.
I am desperate for any and all help in dealing with them as you or anyone can offer. But NOT the type of help that involves people harrassing them like they are doing to me or harming them emotionally like they are doing to me. I want the type of help that will see my name vindicated and all of them punished in a LEGAL manner for what they did to me.
So ultimately, if anyone got that idea from anything I said, or simply out of indiganation at what they have done.... let it go.
And instead please pray for my triumph over this evil. Think about me, pray for my family, my beautiful kids, my safety. Pray that I can forgive them for willfully disfiguring me (especially Jonathon). Pray that I can even forgive the doctor and his co conspiritor/wife and that their evil will no longer have a stranglehold on my life. Pray that instead of hating them with all my heart, I can turn my heart back to loving the worthwhile and immportant things that matter.
Thanks you.
Paulette
Citrus Heights, California
U.S.A.